today i replaced sam in the school parade . weird , i got the hang of it in seconds!!!!!and i don't know why.....usually i'm so tone deaf that it takes me ages to learn a beat.im so envious of those who are performing!!!!!i would totally give anything to perform in any stage , but NOT a bar (ok , so maybe not any stage)anyways ,i watched the others performers the china kids playing captian's ball,and marching in the rehearsel . ruth's singing again(not surprised or anything , but surprised she'll actually WANT to do it again after what it did to her nerves)and she's totally great(not surprised either)plus i've been floating around all the social groups lately , and i can't find where i belong.....people just shove me off when their friends came back from mc...(like the time when mey talked to me only when theary was not around,or the time when a classmate paired up with me when her friend was on a week's worth of mc)so basically , my point is i feel so lonely like kogepan sometimes , like when miss ong said to the school counseler that i should go to a special school or the asylum(mental hospital)anyways ,its like i don't belong in any clique ,im totally diaposable , kicked off when the other person comes back or whatever....i talk to people , they ignore me....until i yell my lungs off , that is.ok ,sory , main point , the ndp was so fun!!!!im done now , so
toodles!!!!
